From someone who battles illness always, I really felt this. “Clinical kindness”. And they tell me I have ‘white coat syndrome’. Meaning fear of doctors or clinical settings. Basically gaslighting me. There are some really good metaphors in this piece. The repainting. The covering up of all things broken & in need of repair. I could go on about how I have very little faith in therapy spaces for healing in. For me it’s time and self care, self expression and nature. And find others who’ve walked similar paths. I also like the idea of piecing together broken things and making a mosaic or piecing together with gold. Some things will never take their original form. Perhaps shape shifting is the new norm. Take care of you and I look forward to reading more soon. 🌤️
Hi Lily, the term ‘clinical kindness’ is spot on. What got to me the most is that I was treated more like a statistic rather than a human. That therapist was so jaded I could tell she was listening. She keep increasing my dosage of meds to the point that I’ll wake up the next day, and still feel so drowsy. Cuz off for me was when I fell in the bathroom cuz I was so off balance and hit my head on the sink and I had to get stitches. Another unnecessary expense. That’s when I stopped listening. Thanks for reading and reaching out, I’m am sad that today is the first day of my 14 day notice because my bosses said they needed me to be present. Just like that. My heart broke cuz not only is it my dream job, on top of that, it’s the way I support my brother who had a stroke and an elderly mum. I don’t know what the future holds but I’m doing my best not to freak out too much, cuz my tears have dried up after they told me about this last Friday.- Shain
Yes that’s a lot to hold. Your shoulders and chest must feel heavy. I understand the weight. And the disillusionment with the system. I really hope fortune smiles upon you somehow. Be kind to your self. A rested soul brings some semblance of peace to sustain us. I have said a prayer for you. Even if God and I don’t always see eye to eye. I think she looks out for me.
There are so many parts of this poem that I love. It's honesty is simplicity as well. It's pain can still finds some humour in it's situation. You have everything you need to see yourself through whatever you're going through. There is so much resolution in this poem and the speaker's ability to identify call out what's really happening with the new interior designs, despite its frustration and despair.
Thanks you so much, I glad it resonated with you. I hope you are in a good place. Stay awhile there a lot more coming. Thank you for reading the piece.- Shain
Hi David , thank you so much for those words of encouragement. I try my best with every piece. I’m trying to add more tools to my writing toolbox. I appreciate you enjoying it. - Shain
I was reading and I caught something. You flipped the script with Humpty Dumpty. That was a something that made smile, despite the nature of the writing. Look forward to reading more.
Hey Sae, I wrote what I wrote because I feel like they(medical professionals) don’t really try to treat the underlying cause, just the superficial ones. Especially my experience with bronchitis. I told them it’s hard to breathe, they just kept giving me different combinations of medication. I just told them straight I need the phlegm out and i should be fine but no one listens. So I incorporated traditional/natural medicine as well. Much better now but still not clear yet.- Shain
I truly understand how you feel. It’s frustrating when medical professionals keep prescribing medicine without properly diagnosing the issue. They are supposed to listen to your concerns and respond accordingly, but that often doesn’t happen. I remember during COVID-19, I went to the hospital with severe leg pain. The doctor kept asking if I had COVID-19, even though I never complained about fever or cough. When I asked if there was any connection between leg pain and COVID-19, he just insisted I get tested and prescribed some medicine without even examining my leg. I was so upset but just left shaking my head. I really hope medical professionals can do better.
Hi lyw thanks so much for your comment and continued support. You know what they say if you don’t laugh, you’ll cry. I just felt like adding a little levity to the situation. And the whole interior design angle was inspired by my friend who is shifting houses and he came by to visit me at home to see how I was . Then he mentioned how much trouble he was having with the interior designer who at first said it was no issue to get the house ready but now are asking for extensions due to unexpected issues. Should they have not looked into it properly first before saying they can perform? Again thanks for always reading and commenting, it means more to me than you know- Shain
You poignantly captured the kaleidoscope lens that traumatized souls must look through, and struggle to describe in their own unique language of suffering and alienation. Our view is more common than our culture would have us believe, I often call out our society, our churches, and our families as "looking good while co-creating the bad, while preserving the historically destructive agendas at all costs, including the continuing conspiracy of silence around its indifference"
From someone who battles illness always, I really felt this. “Clinical kindness”. And they tell me I have ‘white coat syndrome’. Meaning fear of doctors or clinical settings. Basically gaslighting me. There are some really good metaphors in this piece. The repainting. The covering up of all things broken & in need of repair. I could go on about how I have very little faith in therapy spaces for healing in. For me it’s time and self care, self expression and nature. And find others who’ve walked similar paths. I also like the idea of piecing together broken things and making a mosaic or piecing together with gold. Some things will never take their original form. Perhaps shape shifting is the new norm. Take care of you and I look forward to reading more soon. 🌤️
Hi Lily, the term ‘clinical kindness’ is spot on. What got to me the most is that I was treated more like a statistic rather than a human. That therapist was so jaded I could tell she was listening. She keep increasing my dosage of meds to the point that I’ll wake up the next day, and still feel so drowsy. Cuz off for me was when I fell in the bathroom cuz I was so off balance and hit my head on the sink and I had to get stitches. Another unnecessary expense. That’s when I stopped listening. Thanks for reading and reaching out, I’m am sad that today is the first day of my 14 day notice because my bosses said they needed me to be present. Just like that. My heart broke cuz not only is it my dream job, on top of that, it’s the way I support my brother who had a stroke and an elderly mum. I don’t know what the future holds but I’m doing my best not to freak out too much, cuz my tears have dried up after they told me about this last Friday.- Shain
Yes that’s a lot to hold. Your shoulders and chest must feel heavy. I understand the weight. And the disillusionment with the system. I really hope fortune smiles upon you somehow. Be kind to your self. A rested soul brings some semblance of peace to sustain us. I have said a prayer for you. Even if God and I don’t always see eye to eye. I think she looks out for me.
There are so many parts of this poem that I love. It's honesty is simplicity as well. It's pain can still finds some humour in it's situation. You have everything you need to see yourself through whatever you're going through. There is so much resolution in this poem and the speaker's ability to identify call out what's really happening with the new interior designs, despite its frustration and despair.
“They rearranged the trauma, but didn’t remove it.” So well-written, felt it to my core.
Thanks you so much, I glad it resonated with you. I hope you are in a good place. Stay awhile there a lot more coming. Thank you for reading the piece.- Shain
Outstanding writing!
Hi David , thank you so much for those words of encouragement. I try my best with every piece. I’m trying to add more tools to my writing toolbox. I appreciate you enjoying it. - Shain
I was reading and I caught something. You flipped the script with Humpty Dumpty. That was a something that made smile, despite the nature of the writing. Look forward to reading more.
Hey hear the hurt, yeah I was trying to add a bit of levity to a messed up situation. Thanks for reading! -Shain
Hmmm, this hit really hard and I hope medical professionals will do better.
Hey Sae, I wrote what I wrote because I feel like they(medical professionals) don’t really try to treat the underlying cause, just the superficial ones. Especially my experience with bronchitis. I told them it’s hard to breathe, they just kept giving me different combinations of medication. I just told them straight I need the phlegm out and i should be fine but no one listens. So I incorporated traditional/natural medicine as well. Much better now but still not clear yet.- Shain
I truly understand how you feel. It’s frustrating when medical professionals keep prescribing medicine without properly diagnosing the issue. They are supposed to listen to your concerns and respond accordingly, but that often doesn’t happen. I remember during COVID-19, I went to the hospital with severe leg pain. The doctor kept asking if I had COVID-19, even though I never complained about fever or cough. When I asked if there was any connection between leg pain and COVID-19, he just insisted I get tested and prescribed some medicine without even examining my leg. I was so upset but just left shaking my head. I really hope medical professionals can do better.
Get well soon and keep looking after yourself.
Hi lyw thanks so much for your comment and continued support. You know what they say if you don’t laugh, you’ll cry. I just felt like adding a little levity to the situation. And the whole interior design angle was inspired by my friend who is shifting houses and he came by to visit me at home to see how I was . Then he mentioned how much trouble he was having with the interior designer who at first said it was no issue to get the house ready but now are asking for extensions due to unexpected issues. Should they have not looked into it properly first before saying they can perform? Again thanks for always reading and commenting, it means more to me than you know- Shain
You poignantly captured the kaleidoscope lens that traumatized souls must look through, and struggle to describe in their own unique language of suffering and alienation. Our view is more common than our culture would have us believe, I often call out our society, our churches, and our families as "looking good while co-creating the bad, while preserving the historically destructive agendas at all costs, including the continuing conspiracy of silence around its indifference"