You are such a sweetheart!! I cannot wait to read more of your work!! I love reading other people's work often more than ever writing my own!! If we as writers cannot appreciate one anothers efforts then i think we are all pretty much screwed! How are we supposed to get other people interested? If I miss something important feel free to message it to me or post the link in my comments!! Sometimes good things escape me!!
I definitely will. Your words really warms my heart, cuz that one was a hard one to write without breaking down( which I did a lot of). I will definitely let you know. Once I reach a decent number of subscribers I’ll do a weekly newsletter where I will discuss things, share my artwork( where maybe once a month I’ll custom one for one subscriber and send it to them.) or put up my current works up for sale it all depends on varying factors(working as a special needs teacher takes up a lot of my time), and hopefully by that time I get a decent Text to speech AI program subscription to do my reading cuz my current setup doesn’t allow for that there’s too much static and noise since I live just by the main road. But again thank you for joining me into this void.I really appreciate you and this community that’s slowly building - Shain
Aww Shain honestly I truly felt your pain!! I can only imagine how hard it was to write this one out!! You did an amazing job all that pain poured out into your peice!! So wonderful that you work as a special needs teacher!! I used to work with special needs aswell as coordinator for an adult group home for adults with physical and intellectual disabilities!! So special needs are close to my heart!! Thats an amazing job!! It's not easy!!! Somehow I'm not surprised!! You definitely have a sensitive heart!!
I feel that I have a responsibility to them. That I somehow can give them tools they need in this world of ours. This isn’t heroic or anything i would consider noble, i believe everyone deserves a shot in life and if I can advocate for them and make them and their caregivers lives a little better, then I have done something good with my life.
Honestly it's the greatest gift you can give another human being...I didn't last long in highschool before dropping out...I got bullied alot nobody would let me sit at their table...the kids who invited me to sit with them had downs syndrome!! Instead of spending my lunchtime alone crying somewhere they invited me to their table and made me laugh!! And they took care of me!! Thats why when I got the chance i became a caregiver...I wanted to take care of them and make them laugh and give them hope like they gave me love and hope when I didn't have any!! So i know exactly what you mean when you say you don't think it's noble or praiseworthy!! Only people who love clout think like that!! Really caring people just want to help others!! Give them a hand up! 🥹💓🥰
Thank you for carrying this with me. More coming, sometimes louder sometimes just deeper. Thank you again for subscribing you have no idea how much it means to me. -Shain
I felt the pain in this piece. Thank you for sharing. My best friend lost her mom almost 2 years ago. She is currently living in that house I know it’s hard for her. It was her only choice though.
Thank you so much. And I’m so sorry to hear about your friend. It is tough, I used to love staying over and I know every nook and cranny of that place. It was a small house but what it lacked in size, it more than made up for it in the love that existed. Once my foster mum passed, the place immediately had no soul, no heart and no life. And it isn’t just me, others who went to the place never went back. The spark in gone, all that’s left is static. Thank you so much for reading my piece. I hope you will stick around. - Shain.
I am so sorry 😞 grief is never easy. I believe she is still with you encouraging and rooting you on. I’m glad you still have some form of her to hold on to when you need her. 🫶🏼
Yeah, I wouldn’t have believed it if someone said that to me, but experiencing it firsthand was harrowing. I was in tears and I just laid beside her old bed where I usually would fall asleep because we’d talk till all hours of the night. Her words were gems. I just wish I had recorded them. Now the only thing I have left is a video she sent to me from the hospital after I got the news that she was warded and I was in Japan on a holiday. She said don’t worry she’ll see me when I am back but it didn’t sit right with me and I booked the next available flight and by the time I got back she was already in a coma. 63 days I spent, by her bedside praying to anyone that would listen, offering to take her place instead. But nothing happened and all I have left is that final video that I’ll play maybe five days a week just to remember her voice and to see her face again.
Thank you so much. I write from a place where I deal with the darkness. And the only way for me to fight back is to write or do art and this is the result. Once again thank you for taking the time to read it.-Shain
You are such a sweetheart!! I cannot wait to read more of your work!! I love reading other people's work often more than ever writing my own!! If we as writers cannot appreciate one anothers efforts then i think we are all pretty much screwed! How are we supposed to get other people interested? If I miss something important feel free to message it to me or post the link in my comments!! Sometimes good things escape me!!
I definitely will. Your words really warms my heart, cuz that one was a hard one to write without breaking down( which I did a lot of). I will definitely let you know. Once I reach a decent number of subscribers I’ll do a weekly newsletter where I will discuss things, share my artwork( where maybe once a month I’ll custom one for one subscriber and send it to them.) or put up my current works up for sale it all depends on varying factors(working as a special needs teacher takes up a lot of my time), and hopefully by that time I get a decent Text to speech AI program subscription to do my reading cuz my current setup doesn’t allow for that there’s too much static and noise since I live just by the main road. But again thank you for joining me into this void.I really appreciate you and this community that’s slowly building - Shain
Aww Shain honestly I truly felt your pain!! I can only imagine how hard it was to write this one out!! You did an amazing job all that pain poured out into your peice!! So wonderful that you work as a special needs teacher!! I used to work with special needs aswell as coordinator for an adult group home for adults with physical and intellectual disabilities!! So special needs are close to my heart!! Thats an amazing job!! It's not easy!!! Somehow I'm not surprised!! You definitely have a sensitive heart!!
I feel that I have a responsibility to them. That I somehow can give them tools they need in this world of ours. This isn’t heroic or anything i would consider noble, i believe everyone deserves a shot in life and if I can advocate for them and make them and their caregivers lives a little better, then I have done something good with my life.
Honestly it's the greatest gift you can give another human being...I didn't last long in highschool before dropping out...I got bullied alot nobody would let me sit at their table...the kids who invited me to sit with them had downs syndrome!! Instead of spending my lunchtime alone crying somewhere they invited me to their table and made me laugh!! And they took care of me!! Thats why when I got the chance i became a caregiver...I wanted to take care of them and make them laugh and give them hope like they gave me love and hope when I didn't have any!! So i know exactly what you mean when you say you don't think it's noble or praiseworthy!! Only people who love clout think like that!! Really caring people just want to help others!! Give them a hand up! 🥹💓🥰
This is really raw!! I felt the loss, the sorrow!! Wow thank you so much for sharing!! I really like your work!! Im subscribing!! 💓
Thank you for carrying this with me. More coming, sometimes louder sometimes just deeper. Thank you again for subscribing you have no idea how much it means to me. -Shain
What an honest piece. Thank you for sharing it and putting it out here.
Thank you so much, I hope you will stick around.
I felt the pain in this piece. Thank you for sharing. My best friend lost her mom almost 2 years ago. She is currently living in that house I know it’s hard for her. It was her only choice though.
Thank you so much. And I’m so sorry to hear about your friend. It is tough, I used to love staying over and I know every nook and cranny of that place. It was a small house but what it lacked in size, it more than made up for it in the love that existed. Once my foster mum passed, the place immediately had no soul, no heart and no life. And it isn’t just me, others who went to the place never went back. The spark in gone, all that’s left is static. Thank you so much for reading my piece. I hope you will stick around. - Shain.
I am so sorry 😞 grief is never easy. I believe she is still with you encouraging and rooting you on. I’m glad you still have some form of her to hold on to when you need her. 🫶🏼
Me too, you can only prise that video from my stiff dead hands. Thank you for your kind words.- Shain
I wish I had more than words to give you.
It is totally ok. I am just thankful that we made a connection. And that means a lot to me. For that I’m thankful. - Shain
Never know maybe she sent me to give you a virtual hug 🤗
I’m sticking like Velcro that’s for sharing and sorry about your mum. Isn’t it fascinating how big of a difference people make to a place 🫶🏼
Yeah, I wouldn’t have believed it if someone said that to me, but experiencing it firsthand was harrowing. I was in tears and I just laid beside her old bed where I usually would fall asleep because we’d talk till all hours of the night. Her words were gems. I just wish I had recorded them. Now the only thing I have left is a video she sent to me from the hospital after I got the news that she was warded and I was in Japan on a holiday. She said don’t worry she’ll see me when I am back but it didn’t sit right with me and I booked the next available flight and by the time I got back she was already in a coma. 63 days I spent, by her bedside praying to anyone that would listen, offering to take her place instead. But nothing happened and all I have left is that final video that I’ll play maybe five days a week just to remember her voice and to see her face again.
Wow, what a great read - haunting in its rawness and vulnerability.
Thank you so much. I write from a place where I deal with the darkness. And the only way for me to fight back is to write or do art and this is the result. Once again thank you for taking the time to read it.-Shain